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Keep thinking i played you. Keep thinking i am a liar. Keep thinking i have low self esteem. Keep thinking im too into god. Keep thinking im boring. Keep thinking im not worth it. Keep thinking you could have been my stepping stone. Just keep thinking…dont worry you didn’t make me cry. You made me realize things. I see things so clear now. Im sorry im hard to open up. Im sorry i dont pour my heart out to u like u poured urs too me and all i said was aww lok becos i didnt believe it. I shouldnt have led you on when iknew we should of jus stayed friends. Im sorry i gave you blue balls lol, i told you i wasnt gonna do shit, im not like that. Im prude sir. Im sorry i didnt let u meet my mom, you see. Things take time. It was all a rush. Im sorry i spend most my time in church. Im sorry i get mad when i go all the way over there to see u and ur there txtn females. Im sorry i wasted yours and my time. Im foolish, but i wont be fooled twice. & i jus wanna take this last moment and thank jesus christ for not letting you stay for not breaking my relationship w/him . id rather lose this relationship for gods relationship. im not mad for mean things you told me . I’ll just continue to pray for you. sincerely, the girl with the two first names.

it’s the past i forgive you. i have too. everything is going great. im healthy. i grew up with a good head on my shoulders. i stayed strong. and i guess you not being around made it better in a way. i have a step dad now though. he replaced you, yeah..but you will always be my daddy. i never said the words , “i love him” but nor have i never told you either…the closest male figure i ever had was my brother, junior. he’s the one i tell i love you too . and i mean it with every inch of my heart. i never understood why he was so protective of me. i always feared talking to boys or even considering dating. i don’t like being touched. im super shy, and ill just smile at people. i look at how i was raised compared to my sister, and im glad i was watched over like a hawk. my brother told me one time, diamond your beautiful i thought all the guys would be all over you and it scared me . because i know how guys are, im a guy. he thought i was going too be fast lol, nahh bro. im goood. & expecially now. 18 years old and wise. i feel good inside when theres someone attractive that comes too my work or somewhere and i dont pay attention. i love not being interested. i dont care how cute. dont even try asking for my number. im not ready. i dont want to find anybody. i dont even want to make any new friends. dont bother. there are billions of ppl in this world, im sure you can get another girls number, you will forget me by tomorrow, thats what i start to say, and they say some nonsense and i walk away, guys dont like rejection, i know this because ive been called a witch or some other name. but i walk with my head up high. and i am happy ! i love doing things alone. it would be nice having that significant other, but i mean….not right now. nothing lasts while your young. i know i can last , but im a boring person and ill lose the guys interests fast. but anywayss….daddy, im good now! ive gone through things, and i learned . i didnt need you too hold my hand.. i know ill always be your little girl at heart. one day we could share a relationship. but somethings you missed out on. i drive now. im saving for my car. mommy wont let me get my mo-ped:[ i work att in-n-out w/jr haha pretty much the whole fam, so does emilio lol. im taking classes at csn, im going to major in photography and psycology . you know how im obsessed w/ the mind…but ill get back too this later taking littlee tony too see a movie. bro sis night<3 goodnight.